Listen, I don’t care what kind of bad day you are having, when someone is nice to you with no subversive motive, your job is to at least be civil. You don’t have to be cheery or chipper or any other positive adjectives, you just have to be civil. Take your frustrations to either whoever caused them or whoever is in a position to remedy them. Not some random nice person.

‘Nuff said

So we have Microsoft buying “windows” and tiger direct buying “tiger” (essentially). appearently no one stopped to think about the fact that these are not conceptts made up by these companies for the sole purpose of being marketing tools. i know it is a shocker, but long before these companies existed, in fact long before current systems of ownership even existed windows and tigers existed.

Whats next? I imagine that abstract concepts will be next on the list. i envision bill gates michael eisner and george lucus sitting around in bill’s… oh lets say spaceship (oh you know he has one, he has everything else) brainstorming. They come up with the idea to buy the word/idea of “four”, and replace it with threive. (then Lorne Michaels and/or Jimmy Fallon come along and sue them) What a grand old world we live in.

i am too young to be this bitter… this is not healthy. i wish i wasn’t so introverted. in my own disturbed mind is probably not the best place to meet new people. well at least people i can have a healthy relationship with.

so yea… in conclusion ladies and jellyspoons, i hold no expectations for this year but i will try to better myself. after all with no expectations you can have no dissapointments. and i hope everyone out there has a good year, nothing is as bad as it seems in your own mind. (i just wish i could follow my own advice .)

let me just be clear i am not opposed to the act of going out on a date, i think that is a fine way to spend time with someone you care about. what i am opposing is the “dating scene” as in the process by which we loacte the person we enjoy going on dates with.

think about what dating means at its core for a minute. basically it means that we are taking a shotgun approach. we see someone we think we might like and we ask them out (a whole slew of other games comes into play like flirting and playing hard to get, but i am not going to go into those at this point in time) and then if that person has contradicting beliefs or ideas then we break up and find someone new. this is such a scatterbrained approach it is ammazing our species is still surviving. or on the flipside, the other person isn’t working out but you are so scared you won’t find someone new you stick by them through all the shit that comes up. that is just double stupid.

what we really need to do is to focus our efforts. we need to develope a better system, or at the very least slow the whole process down. i don’t know what that new process is (i had some ideas but upon re-reading them i realized i was just describing a slowed down version of dating, which is of course what i am protesting.

I think too many people keep separate in their minds their friends from prosective loved ones. this is my main point you know the clique of friends you hang out with and do things with. you probably know them better than most other people, and you obviously have something in common with them. so don’t be so quick to dismiss them as someone you could have a relationship with.

I’m sorry i rambled incoherently for so long, relationships just confuse the heck out of me and i had to get this off my chest. maby you can glean at least something of use from my musings.